This track I walk

The path I take

No destination in mind

In search of something 

That might not exist 

Stumbling, 

Falling,

The dark despair of my mind

An endless abyss

Is there true value for the thing I seek ?

Is it worth the pain and suffering? 

I continue to walk,

Yet mindlessly 

I search 

Why can’t I find it? 

Falling deeper there is no light

I’m alone with my dangerous mind 

Inner demons feed off dark thoughts 

Whispering vile things nobody wants to hear

I continue to walk

Emotionlessly 

The color of my world fades 

Black and white is all I see

The almond blossoms, gerberas and stocks wilt away 

Leaving only hyacinths and cyclamens 

I continue to walk

Blindlessly 

Stumbling on every corner 

What do I seek? 

I have seem to have forgotten

Forgotten the reason I suffer

Forgotten the reason I live 

I continue to walk 

With no purpose

Do I seek happiness?

Do I seek love?

Do I seek a reason to live? 

I do not know 

My breath is slowing down 

My hearts stopping 

My mind is shutting off

My body is lying still 

Maybe in my next life 

I will find love and happiness

Or I might find my reason to live 

A purpose 

I might find what I seek

Opening my eyes 

An angel touches me 

Their touch of soft silk

They tell me I must live

For them I must find what I seek

Watch the cherry blossom bloom 

As the colored world returns 

I pick up the peonies and finally 

I have found what I seek