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Anticipation

September 22, 2021
By Anonymous

She was walking down the halls

Watches her step

So she don’t fall


She hears the rumors in the stall

Like she's not there at all


They forget that she’s a person

A human being

The depression starts to worsen

And it makes her want to scream


She ignores all the comments

But it’s not that easy

She lets it get to her heart

And it makes her queasy


Every day’s another hussle 

She struggles 

And struggles

Trying to juggle 

What she can’t handle


Every day’s another struggle

Piling up she tries to juggle


And it gets harder

 and harder 

and harder


But nothing works

And she’s not smarter

Not smarter

Not smarter


Anticipation hits her

When will it end

It hits her

 

There's all the fear and anxiety 

Swarming from within

It gives her a break

Then it starts back again

Back up again


They laugh at her

They gossip 

They push her down the stairs


They say she should wear lipstick

And fix up her hair

Fix up her hair


They reach her boiling point

She breaks

She shatters

Tired of disappointing

Now everything matters


She's out there with the crowds now

Lookin’ all pretty

All of her fake friends are with her

Actin’ all witty


She cuts her hair

Make everyone stare 

Try

Pretend 

Look happy

Be fair


Put on a fake face

A smile

A show is what they want

Having fun 

even though it’s hardly ever done


They say

 “girl your one of us now

You look a bit better

But if you think that you are perfect

Then you'll never be better”

Never ever be better


She tries

She tries

She tries


And then at night when she’s alone 

she goes and cries

She cries

She cries


Ignoring all the lies

She tries to try 

she tries to try


All of the days are zooming bye

Blending together 

Trying to hide


They got inside her mind

Traumatized 


Your doing this wrong

You talk too much

You don’t know this song

You need to hush


She's doing all these things

Trying to fit in

She's gone head over hills

She forgot who she is


She tries to be better

Strives to be better


But it's never ever

Ever ever

Ever any better


The author's comments:

People never see what is inside untill it's too late.


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