It’s getting harder to stay 

The scars on my arm continue to fade

And my mind tells me maybe to add more

To place the scars on my heart, directly on my arm 

To show me

I am not the same

I struggle with simple things 

My senses don’t work the same 

It makes me sad not being socially fluent 

Around new people 

And I've always been truly myself

I love to make friends 

But whenever I try to talk my mouth seems to shut off

Anxiety seems to be something I brush off

I never thought it’s as serious as it is

But I go blank when too many tasks are given

When my mind doesn’t have time to take in information 

When something sends me across the line of stability 

I’m not the same 

Everyone says it’s okay

But it’s not to me

I’ve never been okay

Even as a child

I couldn't calm down

And everytime I look around

Its always me, trying to get out

Before I freak out