i fight every day,

but it’s just not that easy anymore. 

it’s becoming so much easier, 

just to give up. 

I promised I would try. 

promised I would fight. 

i promised but i can’t anymore. 

I just can’t. 

the demons, 

the voices,

are getting harder everyday. 

But I'm still here. 

fighting a battle I just don’t want to fight anymore. 

fighting demons who are getting scarier everyday. 

fighting against the voices telling me to “just do it”. 

i didn’t choose this pain,

no one does. 

there are many people like me, 

who are fighting every second. 

they try and try. 

some give up because they just can’t do anymore, 

or they have no way out. 

others continue to fight, 

but it’s breaking them by the second. 

i’m one of those people, 

and i’m breaking by the second. 

I wake up sad. 

sometimes can’t get out the bed. 

don’t eat all day sometimes. 

can’t shower sometimes. 

sometimes break down if i look in the mirror. 

I have learned that all those things are okay. 

it’s okay not to be okay !!