It happens more at night.

Not all the time now just rarely.

It happened more as a kid.

I was always unable to move when it happened.

Always stuck in place.

I couldn’t speak.

Words would form in my head but never come out. 

Sometimes I wanted to scream.

It’s been going on for years.

I can never do anything about it. 

The slow hard pushing on my chest.

The weight I would feel on top of me.

Almost comforting in a way.

When I could finally move no one was there it was just me in an empty room.

Me just feeling that suffocating feeling.

I couldn’t have made it up right?

-Breauna