Bells have already started ringing in my head,

I soon realize that it has already begun.

Falling to my knees as the pain takes over my body, 

I ask myself “ maybe i deserve this”. 

As I lay on my bedroom floor,

Memories I thought were long gone come to light. 

Once again they are causing me a great deal of pain,

But now they have finally broken.

After years of fighting the demons, 

I finally let them take over.

Mentally and physically drained,

Too weak to fight them off.

Nobody knows what i've been through,

Nobody seems to care.

I soon to realize that i have no one,

Laughing because it is no surprise at all.

A thought comes to mind,

“Is this a dream”.

I pinch myself and soon i realize,

This is my forever reality.

The demons are back,

The voices are back.

The thoughts are back,

The anger is back.

I am now on the path I fought against for so long,

I look in the mirror not recognizing who that person is.

I am now worried about my mental state.

Because I know who I am becoming,

And she is dangerous ….