I am a fifteen-year-old girl lost in this generation of broken, degraded, self-absorbed, technology-addicted, sexually perverted teens. Now I'm not saying every teen is, but most I have come across, or even heard of are this way. I myself would say I was this type of person and this is why this poem was written, now if there is any detail more than what I have written wanted I may be emailed, and I am happy to answer any questions. I don't necessarily want to give out my life story here for those who may not want to hear it, I'll give a small version of what needs to be heard. I have gotten into trouble lately and it's always for the same reason, a young girl doing something stupid for "LOVE". I always end up falling head over heals for the wrong type of guy, and I know it too. Everyone around me knows that I know better and yet I practically ruined my teenage years for this. I hope for those who want to learn more, will learn from my experience. This poem is a combination of my pain for leaving a toxic relationship, and feeling the pain I've inflicted on others, and how I feel about myself realizing who I was. Also nobody really realizes that they are in a toxic relationship till they are forced to leave it. I have had issues with my family because I was basically a degraded teen. I had so many bottled up emotions about myself and my body, everything I was doing with myself was so wrong. I was starting to get stressed out and feel anxiety, all because I was carrying the emotions and burdens of others, now as a regular teen I was told "you shouldn't be feeling that way, you should be happy and be out having fun". I right now am suffering from a small technology addiction, and I am slowly trying to process it. to conclude this...I say from the bottum of my heart I'm sorry mom and everyone else that I didn't listen, and I lied so much. I am no longer trusted and I can feel/see that in the way I am spoken to, and that is ok. I understand I am just trying to be guided to the right path and sacrifices, mistakes, even punishments are needed to be made. Everybody makes mistakes, goes through hearbreak, and feels atype of way about their body or even themselves. The hardest part is getting through it alone, so if you have someone who will be there for you please use them and let them know how you feel, I promise they will be there for you :). (down below is an image from the internet of how I feel when lost in thought)

Sincerely 

-J. E.