Because I could not stop change 

It took over as a crashing wave

Slowly filling up my lungs with a sweet-salty burning

I reached for the water’s surface longing to take another breath

For then I would at least know it was my last

Unable to reach that goal I sank to the ocean floor below

I tried to welcome it with warmth 

Maybe then It wouldn’t feel so dark

Alone, my back landed with a thud

And alone I stared up at the sun peeking through deep dark waters

Laying here I knew I was done so I held on tight to the memory of the sun

Its warmth as it danced over my face

That memory no one could erase

And the memory of the moon that moon I nearly worshipped

Its grace and beauty unmatched

I held on to these memories because change was coming and coming too fast

For I could not stop change no matter how hard I would beg and plead

Scratch and kick and bite and scream

For I could not stop change

And it refused to stop for me