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me, the masterpiece
these thoughts in my head–
why won’t they come out?
why are sentences just
so difficult to form, even with the
newfound “ease” of the internet
instead of providing simplicity
it slows the diffusion of thoughts
onto pure paper or tainted technology
try, try again, they say–
what do you think i’ve been doing?
is it your impression that i’ve
spent the last few months sitting
in a pile of tossed clothing and
filth, channeling no energy into
this craft of surprising difficulty
but profound beauty?
i’ve tried to write about the beauty my eyes see
but it feels wrong.
it’s as though i’m wandering around
an abandoned shopping mall in
an eighteenth-century style ballgown
the very essence of beauty but a true
oddity in today’s society
i am a shattered vase, put together again with glue
and a piece is missing and that
piece is my voice, my writing
if i reveal that hidden shatter of me it
scares the innermost parts of my mind that
you won’t enjoy the finished vase
you haven’t used the vase yet because it
wasn’t finished, but once it’s finished,
what if you toss it to the side?
what if you shatter me further–
beyond recognition and destroyed by the words of others?
i’ve sat here, unfinished
for so long that you’ve forgotten
that i am still in progress
but we are all a masterpiece waiting to be finished
some of us are canvases awaiting a painter
a silence in noise waiting to be filled
with blood-pumping music
of violins, pianos, and cellos
a lump of clay hoping to be molded
and i am sitting, waiting, hoping
for a sliver of recognition, but
it helps to remember that completion is key
and i must finalize my masterpiece first
in the process, maybe i will learn
what it means to endure blood, sweat, tears
how to show you an unfinished product but
where to listen to my ideas first and
when to trust my instincts and
why they help to formulate intricacy
but i can–
i will invite you to view me–
my work–
and stand proud as your eyes
wander the pages and formulate
criticism and critiques,
and i know you want to help but
it’s like you are trying to shatter my vase
all over again
yet this time i will be indestructible
and will take bullet after bullet
with confidence, knowing
i cannot be bruised or burdened with
your words as my words have already
damaged me beyond repair
my wounds cannot be healed but i
return to the front lines, day after day
to take your words in stride
and use them not as a weapon but
as a tool, as a device to facilitate improvement
and to foster creativity
i’ll show you my soul if–
without conditions.
i’ll show you my soul, unabridged
with no expectations
i will trust these instincts,
my intuition that has brought me thus far
and will lead me into whatever waits ahead,
whether lovely or terrifying
i am ready now
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this is me letting go of my anxieties about sharing my writing with other people. sharing writing with other people does feel like wearing your soul on your sleeve. relinquishing control of your work, letting people form an opinion about it – that's what this poem is about.