Some days I just want to be alone

Leave this world and go to my own

It is painful to live.

Despite being in a crowd, I am still alone.

The feeling of helplessness is overwhelming. 

There's no reason for me to get up in the morning.

No reason for doing schoolwork, anything.

Why am I like this? 

I hate school

I hate myself

I hate everything

Why am I like this?

I am told, “you have to wear makeup to be pretty”

“You have to have good grades..”

“You can’t like girls”

I don’t wear makeup

I don’t have good grades

I like girls

Why am I like this?

Why can’t I be normal?

Be popular

Have friends

Not be shy

Why am I so different?

I wish I was like other girls,

who likes boys,

who wears makeup,

has good grades,

was popular,

guys liked me,

people will like me,

something such as that cannot be imagined.

I am a lesbian

I don’t wear makeup. 

I don’t need something covering who I am.

Cause I am not afraid.

I wear hoodies, sweatpants, and running shoes.

It’s perfect for me. No fancy shoes necessary,

booty shorts, jeans, jewelry, crop tops, or

nice-looking clothes to look/feel good.