Why me?

You always say to be me 

But you make me wash away the makeup that's too thick or too dark

You make me cover up when my skin shows

You ask me to be silent when I’m too loud

But when I’m silent I have an attitude

You pick on me but not her.

Why me? 

I ask myself the same question over and over hoping for a response

I get nothing.

You bring me down and down

Like a scuba diver going into the depths of the unknown sea

I’m begging you, please

Stop you’re hurting me

You leave red marks, bruises, and welts on me

But you’re always the victim

You blame me for all of it

But it's you

It's always been you

You caused this but I’m to blame

You caused the flames

But they are getting dimmer and dimmer

Then they vanish

It's like lit candles on a birthday cake

Blown out with one simple breath

You hate me or is it you’re jealous I didn’t choose you as a toddler

The anxiety inside me is what you have caused

When I talk I’m always paused because you don’t want to hear what I have to say

I thank you for the pain

But I hate you for the emotional ride you put me on

Why me?

I say but you push me away

when I ask

I’m always doing your task

I will forever ask why me.