if you close your eyes in the sun

green spots appear

floating 

uncertainty through a soft sigh

if you let your mind wander

and your thoughts linger 

something funny happens where

you seem to forget everything

you once knew

it’s peaceful

really

not knowing troubles when

sky is bluer than

wings of 

a butterfly flitting through the wind

and a gentle quietness

reminds you of things you

never knew 

you forgot

i sat there

in the middle of the spring day

the one not quite but

almost summer

the one that existed only 

because what happened now 

thinking

it was fall 

when red leaves littered the earth and

i was never

expecting

never knowing 

not when winter came 

the ground was wet with snow and

the leaves were drained of fiery red and

a singsong voice inside me wished

it was spring

not knowing that

spring would arrive but

hitched on its back something unseen that

wrenched it 

upside 

down

my eyes wander to a flower 

a white one 

gleaming in the sun

its petals poking through the soft brown

earth

it seemed so long ago that things

were all the same and i 

thought that was the way

they’d be

forever

the clouds hide the sun

with their veils,

their misty gowns

and i think

just yesterday

we were all at school together

hoping for summer to come

but 

now it’s here

and not in the way

we wanted

it’s dusk now 

and the wind long settles 

and a light flickers on in the neighbor’s house

then 

something inside me

flickers on too

and 

i’m 

thinking

in a way

we’re still together