Life is a suffocation of the soul
pain is the feeling of an immeasurable hole
loneliness is a feeling for me and no other
Social anxiety is what I feel when together
paranoia is a fear not of fact nor fiction
anxiety is a word unable to become diction
Happiness is the absence of problems
joy is the ignorance of murderous goblins
my mind, two poles on opposite sides
waxing and waning as if with the tides
but no matter my fragile mental state
I clear my mind, a peaceful blank slate
Life is a suffocation of the soul
but it is the suffocation that makes me feel whole
All this suppression sets in my hunger
Makes me feed that hatred of those with better
The many things in this place make me colder
How is it sick to wish the world in order
Often I see where our whole race had led
And can't even make a reason to leave my own bed
And then I see something that goes and makes me so mad
But it's only the anger at others that aren't sad
When I go out I feel a separation from home
Yet it's only the fear of losing what I own
Life is a suffocation of the soul
But for the rewards I will pay the toll
I can't be satisfied by anything I've done
So much to do my time reaching none
My hatred transforms turning another hue
The one of jealousy wishing for what is due
The terror of living this little life as me
As it sets in my mind clears I finally see
Life is a suffocation of the soul
But that is how it is for those with no goal