Life seems to be at a halt

I think to myself,

Is this feeling my fault?

Schoolwork seems meaningless.

I do my work but less than 24 hours later

More work pops up on my screen.

Whether it’s busy work or something to train my mind,

I have no motivation to do it.

My emotions have left me.

I am in a state of stone.

I sit like a slab in front of my screen and read the words but don’t understand them.

I am filled with emotions.

Misery, sadness, boredom, frustration.

My mind races at the speed of light yet I can’t focus on anything.

I weep at the sight of a missing assignment.

Haven’t I been working for hours now? How could I have let this deadline pass?

I remember why.

I chose to laugh.

I chose to relax.

I chose to sleep.

I chose to forget,

For my sanity’s sake.

I can’t get anything.

A correct answer,

Enough words to fill a 4 page paper,

Time to study for my test,

A break.

It seems to be going in a loop.

I don’t want to do it anymore,

But the world moves on around me.

If I don’t keep moving with it,

I will be trampled.

Is that feeling so bad though?

I already feel like my soul has been crumpled like an old can of grape soda.

My heart feels like it’s been pieced back together with paper mache.

I will be crushed.

But I’m okay with that.

I’m just going to close my eyes,

And sleep for now.

And I’ll get back to moving in the morning.