The feeling is overwhelming.

It's even hard to explain.

My throat feels so tight,

I am not even able to complain.

It overtakes my body, 

the grief and the pain.

And I try to always remind myself,

It is all in my brain. 

I wish it would go away.

I didn't choose to be like this. 

But one time I had a bad day,

And I've been like this ever since.

The day turned into a week,

The week turned into a month,

Then I lost track because all of my days ran together.

I was just going through the motions,

Not really even living.

Little did I know,

That was just the beginning.

It gets easier as I go.

I live and I grow.

One day I hope this is something

That no one ever has to know.