My puffy eyes, my dry cracked lips, my stuffy red nose,

 my dried tears that have stained my cheeks;

 it's very noticeable when I cry of frustration 

but I keep my head up and keep pushing myself.

 I ask myself why is everything complicated in life?

 It seems like nowadays there's no happiness but anger. 

I feel trapped in this tiny pitch black room. 

It feels like I'm running out of oxygen if I don't make the right moves.

 I feel so distant from my family, my friends, and myself. 

I could be laughing and smiling but when I'm by myself, 

I feel like a different person. 

When I go home I have to do all my responsibilities so I can be successful in life. 

Am I sad? Am I lonely? Am I depressed? Am I confused? 

I'm not sure 

I don't know how to express my emotions so that's why I keep it all in.

 People could say I’m just a kid, that I shouldn’t shouldn't be stressed out, 

that I shouldn’t feel these emotions. 

I don't understand myself, sometimes I feel like I'm overwhelm;

It's hard because I feel like I live in a society where my world is crumbling down. 

I still cry because I feel like I’ve already failed in life 

but I know I haven't and I will keep pushing until I‘m successful in life.. 

Why do things need to be more complicated than it already is; 

how come it can't be a fairy tail and have a happy ending. 

Well life will always be numb to me.