I have entered a forest

A forest I haven’t seen before

But I go in

I enter, and I’m scared

It’s pitch black and huge

I look back, but I can’t see the entrance 

I try to find it but it’s nowhere in sight 

I am stuck

I am stuck in the forest

I look around at the trees

There is one that is broken

Falling apart

That’s really sad, but there’s no point to care

There is one that is tall

It’s looming over me

That’s making me anxious, I hope it doesn’t fall

There is one that is

Weird

The inside looks oak

But the outside is birch

That’s a very weird tree

There is one that it small

But it clearly wasn’t

Bits were chopped off to make this big tree small

I look at all the trees 

I get feelings I haven’t got before

I feel worthless

I feel scared

I feel wrong

I feel heavy

Ugh, what is the point

I am lost in this huge, dark forest

With no end in sight

Something tells me to look for a trail

To at least see if there is a way out

Something else tells me to stay

At least I’ll be alright there

I try looking for a trail

But I fail

Keep going! You’ll find one soon

I don’t want to do this, but why not

I want to give up 

I try to give up

I can’t find a trail anywhere

There is no trail

Let’s just give up looking for this said trail

And it seems like every time I look for this trail I get hurt

I look for one in an area and get scratched by thorns

It really hurts at first

But after awhile I’m used to the pain

I’m ok with the pain

Maybe I even like the pain

But I’m still lost

There is still no trail in sight 

What is even the point if there is no trail

But something tells me to keep going so I imply

After what seems like years of being stuck

Stuck in the forest

After seeing so many trees

After many thorns being pricked

After getting up to find a trail but failing

After so much darkness

After so much pain

After almost giving up completely 

I found one

A trail

It’s faint, but it’s there

I get up, although I’m scared, I follow the trail

Sometimes I want to turn back

I started getting comfortable in that spot

But I found a trail

I found a way out

I can finally go back home

But, not all stories have happy endings 

It may seem like it, but it isn’t always the case

I follow this trail for what seems like months

Checking to see if it’s still there

I look down one day

No trail

There is no more trail

The trail is gone

What happened to the trail

I was doing so well

I kept looking down to see if it was there

And it was

But now it’s gone

Why is it gone

I did nothing wrong

No stray paths

No distractions 

I stayed on the path and now it is gone

What did I do wrong

I look at my surroundings 

I feel weird

Like I’m having deja vu but, not

Some trees look familiar 

The broken tree

The looming tree

The different tree

The small but big tree

But it’s different now

They have taken a new shape

It has taken a new form

The same trees

But much, much more intense

So now, once again, I am stuck

Stuck in the forest

With no trail in sight