The night seems endless, tranquil.

Peaceful

Night has dawned

But I cannot fall asleep

The long wavelength of chatter flow across the distance of the room, 

and into me

I long to understand the mystery of the bleak darkness.

Was there an unholy monster lurking in the dark, waiting for me to inch closer? 

I can’t sleep

Do you understand?

Thoughts, 

Like a depressing lullaby 

Lingers in my mind 

If the brain is an uncompromising piece of machinery,

Why can’t it shut off? 

It continues to pound at me like a hungry, desperate wolf, 

attacking at full force. 

My chest heaves up and down, 

Steady with rhythm,

My breathing soon smoothens, 

It’s a red herring,

I cannot fall asleep

I can’t sleep

I want to sleep

Days and nights

Days and nights 

I hold out a humble hand, 

I struggle with the darkness, unwilling to let it engulf me

Suddenly, my body swells up

the bed has turned into the den of the hideous monster! 

It wants to entrap me in eternal solitude 

My heartbeat accelerates, 

My defense mechanism turns on, 

I’m ready to fight

I’m stepping in, 

Caged

In rage

Alone

I can’t sleep

I shut my eyes tight, 

But my brain is still—

Wide awake

At night

The world is silent 

I see it with more clarity

I wake

I lay back down 

And the night will pass