I fell for him…rapidly

But not in the way i expected

I loved him, before anything else

I fell in love, inside out.

You don’t know how it is to love someone like that

It's like i took a knife and cut his chest open,

Then with my firm thumbs i grabbed hold of his skin and pulled it,

Inside out. 

Revealing the bloody mess inside

I saw it all– raw, fresh, and honest. 

Heck, i’ve memorised him so well from the inside

I know how that vein on the left side of this forehead throbs in anger

The way he clenches his jaw in my presence

How his lungs heave when i say ‘i love you’

How his heart beats rapidly and irregularly when he tells me i love you. 

I saw it all– the good, bad, ugly, bloody…                     

And i loved it, 

I love how im the only one who knows him, 

Inside out, and back again.