Dear, Crush 

Is it bad? That I like you this much the point I want to see you everyday? This is crazy I can’t like you, I feel like  you don’t feel the same way back. Even though you told me you did, but why did you take so long so think about it ? it’s yes or no ? Why is it something bad ? or you don’t like me? I don’t want to think that you just played me, I really hope you didn’t because that’s f*** up because I put my whole time to talk to you things like that. The way you made me feel is something different. I can’t explain it I wish I can, but why do you ? mmm I have a lot of reasons. You are such a funny person just like me kinda. You are not as dumb as I am but in a funny way. You catch my attention if you flirting ways, even though I can’t do the same way back. It’sjust dumb and cheezy but you like that though. Ouuuuu like your voice when you talk even though it changes at some points it just goes with you. The things I don’t like about you but it’s kinda funny when I can’t be sad around you, you just make me laugh and smile or confused. I think it makes think about how you don’t make me sad. But i mean i just have to go with it, I’m just scared about this emotions I really am to the point where I just want to give up. I don’t want to get another heartbreak for the person I really really really like I haven’t felt like this in years, trust me . Another thing is that people will judge me because well I’m thicker I guess idk and you are thinner than me sadly and I don’t want to think like that. UGHHHHH I hated when i was holding your hand they were small and mine were big EVEN WITH NAILS.  I shouldn’t be thinking like this and I know I shouldn’t , I'm just afraid to lose you because of what people think and just sooooooooooooooo many other things. I’m trying not to think so negative but I have a lot of those it can go on and on and on but I mean If i really really honest you make me happy and sad and mad but that’s what I have to deal with. You make feel not sad and that's a good thing and you don’t make feel different and I could be honest with you and that's huge bonus point of them all. BUt I won’t laugh weird in front of you because well it will scare you away. You know what’s crazy I haven’t wrote a love note in forever and that’s because I truly like you.