Nothing hurts more

Than watching your best friend 

Become a total stranger 

I remember the nights I stayed up till twelve

To be the first to say 

“happy birthday” 

The days we spent together

Doing nothing for hours

Except thinking of ways 

To make each other laugh

The way your face lit up

When I resurfaced

One of our many inside jokes

And there's another thing

Our jokes

They’re so hard to forget

Because everywhere I look

I'm reminded of the stupid things we laughed at

From us tackling each other 

In your front yard on Halloween

To a random traffic cone that made us die laughing 

Remember when we stayed up 

Until three in the morning 

On a school night

Because you thought someone was trying 

To break into your house?

Remember how it was just a stray dog 

Scratching at the screen on the basement window?

Our sense of humor was so messed up 

But it was okay because at least we understood each other's jokes

Even when others didn’t 

Then 

Something changed

You wouldn't look at me in the halls

You wouldn't answer my texts

You wouldn't even breathe in my direction

And I couldn’t understand why

But my stupid self kept asking

“What's wrong”

And every time 

I was met with silence

I gave up

And started making new friends

And as the months passed

And I grew more popular 

You fell into a downward spiral

Sometimes I pity you

How every time you turn your back

Someone says 

“I hate her so much”

Other times I can see 

Why people say the things they do

But do not take my words the wrong way

All I do is listen

Because I'm scared to add to the conversation 

But I'm also scared to defend you

For fear of getting in trouble 

And For fear of what they might say

All we have now 

Are small glances in the hall

Or unintentional eye contact during lunch

I may even say hello

Depending on my mood

But to be completely honest

If you asked to be friends again

I would probably say no

Please do not take it too personally

But I realized I am a better person without you

I am a nicer person now

I am a social butterfly now

I am friends with people I wouldn’t have been friends with

If we still talked

So I'm sorry

No actually 

I'm not

For you ruined my life

And then ruined yours

But the difference between us is

That I built my life up again

Even better and happier than before

I surrounded myself with smarter people

Less toxic people

People who wouldn't tear down my defenses

This may sound sarcastic 

But I hope you have a good life in the future 

I hope you won't ruin your relationships 

Like you did ours

I hope you appreciate the people who stay by your side

Before they disappear

Right

Before

Your

Eyes