Being a church girl

I am expected to be at church every Sunday

I am expected to have everything right in my life

I am expected to be happy all the time

I am expected to have a smile on my face all the time

I am expected to never make any mistakes

I am expected to be perfect.

Being a church girl

I can never have any learning moments

Because I’m supposed to have everything right, right?

But no one knows what us church girls go through

With having the thought of always being perfect

Even though no one is perfect

People still expect us to be something that we are not.

Every day we struggle with the thought of

What do they think of us

Or oh I can’t do that because

I'm a church girl.

We struggle with the thought of

What will the church say or

What will our parents say or

What will our friends say?

People don’t know what goes on in our lives

People do not know that we have something wrong,

But being fully honest

Everyone has something going on.

It does not  matter who you are

Or what people know about you

Everyone has something going on in their lives

Even the people you least expect

The people who have

“It all together”

Have something going on that they do not, want anyone knowing.

Even us church girls.

Even us church girls,

Do not know what to do when

Our families split

When our friends are fighting

When we are depressed

When we have self-doubt

When we have body issues

When we have anxiety

When we are getting bullied

When we have anything going on in our lives

We still do not know what to do

Or what to think.

Even us church girls.

Even us church girls

Can not wait until we climb over that mountain

Even us church girls

Can not wait until we kick down that wall

Even us church girls

Can not wait until we finish sailing through that ocean

Even us church girls

Want everything to be okay

But not everything is okay

And that is okay

It's okay to not be okay

Even us church girls need to be reminded

Of what God says about us

And not of what other people say.

Because if  even the church girls

Are not believing in what God says

Who will?