Your hands graze against mine ever so softly

Some days they are smooth

The feeling lingers on my skin

But, as my fingers trace the outline of your hands

I feel the rough patches

They show the struggles in your past

How they become you and what they have made of you

My eyes always stay focused in on them

I will never allow myself to look up

Never into your eyes

Because if I do

There’s no going back

I was once mesmerized by your beauty

Awestruck by the pain and love in your eyes

Until I lost it

I will never allow myself to feel your love again

Only the edges of your fingertips