Who do I want to be

Who do I want to become

Who am I

Before I asked these grueling questions, I was different

I solely cared about me

I acted only in self interest

Took no risks

Followed all of life’s rules

And calculated every move I made

What would they surmise

What would I do

How would I benefit

But after some self reflection
A loss of many close friends

A couple broken bones

And a couple broken souls

I wanted to change

I wanted a new me

What do I want now

I want the world to genuinely enjoy my presence

Not the fraudulent front I put out for others

But me

I want to sincerely care for people, so they can truly value me as a friend

For being an honest person

Doing loving things

But what really matters is

Who am I

Am I there yet

After 16 I’s, 4 me’s and 2 self’s

I still have a long journey to complete

But what really matters is

I’m growing

I’m changing

And I’m trying