She is the girl made of steel

her inner most detailed emotions hidden away locked into a chest which has no key

She is the girl who refuses to believe she cares

who refuses to believe she craves something real and deep

she refuses to believe maybe she needs a shoulder to lean on

maybe she isn’t okay being alone 

maybe she needs someone 

she is the lost girl 

the girl looking for her true self in a world that tries to blind her 

 a world that constantly tries to rob her off of true emotions 

she wants something to hold 

and yet she is to scared to reach for it 

she gave and gave and gave 

until she had nothing left 

and then she fell apart 

and this time 

when she built back up

she replaced the dough with steel

and heart with rock 

she let her emotions be locked away 

so maybe she wouldn’t feel it any more

she tried and tried to find a middle ground 

a place where she could be herself and yet not be run over or stomped on 

and she mistook a heart of steel for a middle ground 

and she blindly shut out every human attachment she had

she unwillingly gave up 

she hardened her heart 

so it couldn’t be crushed as easily 

she saved her tears for the hours everyone sleeps through 

she saves her emotions for when she is completely and utterly alone 

because she can’t understand someone out there will give her everything 

someone out there is looking for exactly what she can give 

and by locking herself away where no one can say 

she doenst allow herself to be fixed 

she doenst allow herself to be okay 

because to be okay is to mean she was broken in the first place 

and that’s something she can’t handle