I looked at some of the things that I have been through... And how i was fustrated with the feeling of being stuck and not being able to move forward. Some of the emotions and imagery I drew from was the memory of my little brother and his fight for life against cancer, and feeling of and black, cold like wegde being driven into my family . Plus the lost of a friend, I decided to sum everything up and kind of step back and look down upon everthing. I also wanted a strong sense of an emotion, I don't know the exact emotion, but want my readers to feel a sense of hope or grasping this far off thing that's so dear to their heart and want to pull that in and never lose sight in but in reality, that things is already gone and you've become lost dreaming of something that'll never come true and you're left dealing with those feelings and wasted years. I wanted to paint a vivid picture of how I felt in life at that time, but kind of blur the full image. Hopefully I did that well and readers like my poem.