He said: I didn’t try hard enough

He said I didn’t fight hard enough

He said I could’ve just

Got up and left

I stay up late, crying,

Blaming myself for not

Fighting enough

I remember it clearly

Like it was yesterday

I didn’t know a 14-year-old

Could hurt me in that way

I guess he thought I was small enough,

Weak enough

Attractive enough

To hold me down and play me rough

I guess my sweater and sweatpants

Weren’t ugly enough

I don’t understand…

Why some boy thought he could

treat me like that

I’m ugly: boring brown eyes, a little bit fat

I ran to my boyfriend, instead of my dad

He blamed me, dumped me

And that’s the end

I wonder now, and wonder how

It would’ve been

If I tried hard enough

If I fought hard enough