I continue to cry

I cry about my losses

I cry about my heartache

And I cry about the unknown

I continue to cry

To cry until the pressure builds up so much

That my mind implodes

To cry until the tears leave me empty

And my body withers from dehydration

To cry until I drown in my own sorrows

My problems have always seemed best healed

With that salty taste

However, I soon realized

That it only caused my wounds

To sting so much more

I acted as though the ocean could save me

That it could cleanse me of my pain

And carry me to safety

However

I soon realized

The ocean only kills

It leaves you sticky and swollen

It pulls you under

Stealing your last breath

I grew tired of those tears

Tired of the stains they left on my cheeks

That showed proof of my weakness

Tired of the way my eyes

Could tell my secrets to the world

But not only that

I grew tired of the endless cycle

Of needing closure

And only getting bit by the sharks

The saltwater that streams from my eyes

Forms an ocean at my feet

It promises to heal me

And take care of me

But in reality

It keeps taking the last few pieces of myself

That I have left

I will no longer run into the waves

I will not dive into the depths of the waters

Instead

I will stand tall on the shore

And let the wind guide me to healing

Because the longer I swim with the sharks

The more dangerous it becomes