I used to not wear makeup 

I used to not straighten my hair

I used to care what anyone thought of me 

I used to not care if I had a boyfriend 

I used to think boys were gross

I used to think everyone was my best friend 

I used to love school

I used to be happy 

What happened to thinking about our schoolwork and our grades and a good education?

Instead we think about being judged and all of our anxiety’s .

School is somewhere in the back of our mind but we will never focas on that somewhere. 

Dont you rember when we were little and would put our arms in our shirt and say we have no arms and sleeping with our stuffed animals and none of them ever judged us or how we would watch the raindrops on the car window as if it was a race .

We all couldn’t wait to grow up .

But who would want to grow up being scared to go to school because they might get shot and killed and never wake up or get to go home to their family’s . They would never even get to graduate or get married.

Who would want to grow up were good , wasn’t good enough.

Who would want to grow up to get their heart broken or loose their so called best friend .

Who would want to grow up where mothers are scared that they might walk into their child’s room and find them hanging . 

Who would want to grow up in a world of pain and stuffering ?

I mean kids at young at 10 are crying themselves to sleep !

This , this is our world .

Who , just who would want to grow up ?