This trial, this time of confusion,

I don't understand.

Is it all illusion?

Will this anxiety be temporary,

Or will it last forever?

Will it last forever and ever until

I can't take it anymore?

Will it make me suffer and beg and plead

Until I'm sobbing on my knees?

I don't know.

These dreams I have

That I long for so dearly,

Will they ever come true?

Will my story end with

A prince charming and

Happily ever after

Just like in the fairytales?

Will I ever gain success?

Will life ever be in my favor?

I don't know.

This struggle that persists,

Will it control me?

Is it set in stone, in my bones?

Is this truly my fate?

Is it the universe telling me to quit?

Will things ever change?

Will I ever bloom into

Something more beautiful,

Or is this the end?

I don't know.

This fear inside of me,

Will it ever go away,

Or is it here forever, forever to stay?

Is it something that will

Get better over time,

Or is it a steady, constant line,

Going on forever, no curves or edges?

Will this fate-formed line ever stop?

Will I ever have the courage to

Finish this journey I began?

I don't know.

This person that I am,

Will she ever know better than to

Be so naive and forgetful?

Will she ever have the wisdom

To know what's best,

Or the strength to carry on?

Will she ever find love,

Or should she be eternally lonely?

"Will you ever amount to anything..... at all?"

I don't know.

I don't know.....