You tell me I am different

That I never used to dress like this

Talk like this

Or live like this

You tell me you miss who I was

Before I changed

That no one understands you like I did

No one knew the perfect thing to say except me

You miss talking about how horrible the world is

And letting out all your bottled up feelings

With me there to dry your tears

With a promise not to tell your mother

How I used to be the best listener

And always willing to help

Or drop everything for a call

You miss the poems I used to write

About the black hole life was

How the punishment is living

And dying is the relief

You say I looked good in black

And i sound best singing about loss

With hollow eyes

And pain in my heart

But black hid my tears

And fear filled my mind

Yellow matches my smile

And laughter sounds better than loss

I still love when it rains

But sunshine tastes like lemonade

And life is sweet like honey

My cheeks are pink

Not pale and cold

The only thing on my wrists

Are bracelets woven with love

I like my hair blowing in the wind

Not falling out with a breeze

And going out is better

Than staying home alone

Suddenly

I am full of sunflowers

Daffodils

And smiles

My smile is big

And my world is

yellow