That summer i was alone

It was one I could never forget

It was great

Until my boyfriend was hanging out with girls he dated at one point

It made me feel worse and worse about myself until

I finally cracked

I couldn’t do this anymore

“I think we need to break up”

That’s not what he had in mind

“They are just friends”

“It’s not that big of a deal”

I believed him

My parents caught me spending the night at his house

We were not in the greatest place

I was grounded for a month

That was the worst month of my life

I was stuck at home being mad at my parents

And my boyfriend was hanging out with the same girls

Being mad at me

I stayed in my room for hours

Seeing nothing but a blur from the tears that rolled down my cheeks

All I could hear was the occasional sobs that I couldn’t hold in anymore

And the t.v. in the background

I was holding onto nothing but the pillow I used to bury my face in

All I had was racing emotions and horrible thoughts

That summer I learned what heartbreak felt like

I didn’t understand why he was doing this

Was it me?

Am I not good enough?

That’s all I could think about

Sometimes I still feel that way

I will never forget all the pain and what it taught me

In the end I will have no one but myself

I’m my own shoulder to cry on

That summer I learned how to hold onto myself