I'm not going to claim I had nothing growing up
I came from something I had dad have a mom
Life's not a sad story but that depends on one’s perspective
reacting short term prevents people from truly prospering

On my end I'm just reaching not over flexing for the cash and added glory
I don’t know if I'm on the right path because now a days all I do is go to school till I work till that clock runs out and filling up on dabs so the remaing time blurs out
I just turned 16 when the gleaming light of the perfect family finally fell into darkness
It was hard to witness as my dad threw it all away forever stained is his parting image
I had to live through it the mood changes always feeling like a criminal so I turned into something unknown
Drowning in negativity really had me questioning if my life would never be more then pure thievery
Buts its funny how I can swear he’s a damned man but still love him while scared in the end
Im grateful for my experience he may not have been my father full time
But he was the one who passed down his lifes experiences to me
I cant lie while going through and probably seeming careless
Sometimes a boy's stuck in those sad vibes
Im no closer to being the fearless man I wish I was
I have wondered what it'd be like to die
I thought some things to be true
Would my life really flash before my eyes
A Childish trap of a mindset some are never snapped out of
But thank god I was
Yes I was that 14 year old kid name Carl who went missing
All because he was smoking weed while being scared of getting his a** beat
By his dead beat da….
Never mind I cant disrespect him to that point
What I'm concerned about mentioning is that I was able to learn
If I didn’t have that strict father the problem would have progressed
Whether or not he left in the end
But I was taught something
The value of lessons never lessens over time
Emotions are the main focus for more or less I would rather be alone struggling with restless nights

Now I pick the people in my life right
Whether they know it or not their intentions are clear to me
Our time together may not be what you thought
I don’t consider many to be friends its actually a short list and they know who they are

Life's not that long and I've wasted time as is I'm getting serious about my future
But I'm still far from my dreams
The highlight of my life is yet to come
My plan is simple I'm just showing those who doubted me from day one they were wrong
But the most important thing is showing my mom the boy she took care of became a success
Not the failure his father walked out on

I never really applied my self to school nor did I ever fail a class but
I can't remember a single lesson that helped me prepare to deal with the people of todays world
I know I shouldn’t care if it Dosnt affect me
But when I look in depth at today’s world grief hits hard
Forced Seeing people accept the low in their life is as high as they will ever be without getting their next fix
I know the world is a dark game fixed for the monsters pretending they hold onto what it means to be human
Seems like Fewer and fewer are taught to help others but to avoid all strangers
Common sense is fleeting crime’s way to high and war’s inevitable
Everyone's actions have me questioning if these opinions are facts
Gold… Money… Currency… tax....shinny things have always lead man to make dangerous decisions
I know there's no such thing as superheroes but is that really what we need to stop the spread of the darkness
I fear basic life morals and values are going out of style

Never thought this is who I be today
I remember just yesterday
I mean way back the start of it all
My bad it feels not that long ago when I moved to north park
Garfield elementary where I met the people who sharpened this boy’s eyes
Jealousy
Trust is mysterious yet simple like time
Occasionally it seems I have to wind myself up just to wake
Between misconnections and mistakes I don’t want to put my trust in anyone
But living life’s day to day taught me you can't fully control what happens

How you feel here is different from there and then
Growing up I was a typical child seeking attention talking to new people
I miss that innocence
If you would listen I could tell you a million things without a care in the world

But that side of me was set to blow there's things not to miss
Treating everyone like their a friend can be dangerous
I didn’t realize at first but those people indoctrinated me in the worse way
I don't know if they were ever truly apart of my life

It's hard to see if your not trained the unnatural high society values that only comes from a flashing screen in front of them
Can't see passed now dulled pinpoints of everyday life gun violence, drugs , crimes ehhh
Real problems only show up in the news or has the most views