I am 10, I am beginning to see my life crumble right in front of my eyes.

I shut them to make it stop,

but it doesn’t work.

My eyes begin to water more and more,

the more I’m seeing the more I’m learning

that my perfect life isn’t

perfect.

I hate the sight I’m seeing

but I keep it to myself, as it’s hard seeing my parents like this,

with a war going on between them, one that I’m not going to win.

I try not to see

but it’s impossible to look away.

Just waiting for the day for them to drop the bomb,

and watch my life explode.  

I am 10 and have learned that you can learn a lot just by listening

especially when you’re not suppose to.

Like when my parents got in a disagreement and stormed off into the bedroom,

where the arguing would last for hours.

They tried to hide it, they didn’t do a very good job,

as they didn’t realize how loud they were being.

The frequency and volume of disagreements kept increasing,

they didn’t think I noticed, I promise I did.

I was so confused and overwhelmed,

Was this because of me?

And even when I opened my ears, things were still not clear,

I had millions of questions but I kept them to

myself,

out of fear of what I would hear.

It's not just what you hear, but what you don’t hear.

I stopped hearing “I love you”

I heard their love for each other vanish,

like a shadow.

I am 10 and have experienced how one heartbreaking moment,

can forever change your life.

My heart belonged to my family, my friends, and

my dog.

My dog, she always has had a special place in my heart

My dog, I was born and raised with her, I didn’t know life without her

My dog, was the glue of our family,

when we lost her, we lost our family.

The day my dog died, the greatest heartbreak

of my life occurred.

It’s the day, my life finally collapsed,

like a house of cards.

It’s the day my parents sat us down, and threw in the flag,

and said “We’re done”.

It’s the day my heart was shattered into millions of pieces,

when they said their love was no more.

I am 10 when I have no clue what to say,

I always had something to say.

Emotions came spewing out of my mouth:

frustration, anger, shock, despair,

guilt.

They said it wasn’t our fault,

but at the time it felt like it was.  

Now I am 17,

I still replay this day in my head,

the sorrow now accompanied with understanding

of why this happened. It was about so much more,

than lack of love.

I’ve grown so much.

My mind is now settled.