Some days I sparkle and shine
As if I am a delightful ray of sun
Skipping across the world
Leaving gemstones of warmth
Glittering across the ground
Yet a lot of the time
I feel like an extinguished fire
The remnants of something
That once burned so bright 
So magnificently with ruby flames
And I understand why they say 
That too often bright high school students
Get burned out too soon
I try to tell myself that I am still a flame
I try to remind myself of 
What warmth feels like
Even on the coldest days 
Of bitter winter where my mind
Has become a frozen warzone 
Of yes and no, of stop and go
Iceballs are thrown, shattering 
The snowy crystal palaces that I 
Had spent so much time building
I try to escape my battle field mind 
By going on solitary walks outside
Letting the sunshine embrace me 
Like an old, long-forgotten friend
So that maybe it will rekindle 
The ash-tray massacre of 
my lifeless, gray body 
The burnt out wicks of 
My melted candle soul
The sunlight whispers my name
It tells me that I am light 
And some days I believe it
But some days I don't 
Even get to go outside