Last night was amazing
Yet very, very sad
He was so happy
And I’m supposed to too
But I couldn’t
I couldn’t stop remembering the great memories and the beautiful friendship that has come to an end tonight
I’m hung over with sadness
But aren’t I supposed to be happy?
A small part of me is
He’s moving on
He’s doing bigger things
And I’m proud
And devastated
Yet very angry at myself
If only I have lived the moment
If only I have cared less about what happens next
Maybe things would be different
Maybe I would have had the chance for a proper goodbye
Or maybe not
Maybe this isn’t goodbye
There’s always an after to the after party
The curtain call
There’s always beyond the happy ever after
So I shouldn’t lose hope
If faith brings him back
Only for a moment
I’ll use it
I won’t hesitate
I’ll make the best of it all
Cause maybe then
Then it will be goodbye