A new medicine
Pumping adrenaline
Through my veins
More insane
Ups and downs
Strange sounds
What are these things I am hearing?
Sweet little sounds, so endearing
Pushing me straight
Keep going! No time to wait
I’m on the right path
Now don’t fall back
Into your old ways
Depressed everyday
You don’t have to be that person
Constantly hurting
Because of your parents
This burden, you can bear it
You’re strong, little one
You can’t get your life back; no refunds
Just move on, you’re hurting yourself
You’re choosing to live your hell
You have an amazing talent
You’re on your feet, don’t lose your balance
I’m sick of writing about suicide and death
And all about my mother’s use of meth
I’m tired of the dark
I want a fresh start
I’m sick of crying
Slowly dying
Killing myself
Only I can help
I didn’t survive
Just to die
I didn’t make it here
To kill myself, my dear
With that being said, I’m crazy
Reality hazy
Hammer clicks
Lunatic
Dealt a bad hand
Faces in the sand
Played it right
Stalked all night
It’s daytime now
I survived, somehow
No more night
Now I live in the light
And you can too
But understand, no one can help you
You have to help yourself
You have to escape your own hell
The gun against my temple
End it all, so simple
But I can’t do it
Because I know I will get through it
Is it false hope, though?
I do not know
But I feel good
Like I should
Now what to do, where to go?
Thank you, Lexapro