Not always sure what things called sins may be,

I am sure of one sin I have done.

It was two years ago, and I remember as if it was just yesterday

We were walking by the park where the trees were as big as skyscrapers,

You said, “Wherever you go, even if you’re far away...

Always remember that you’ll have a friend here.” you handed me a paper.

You handed me a key, you looked at me and smiled.

You said, “Never lose this key and keep it forever.”

I took the key, looked at you and you looked back.

I remember looking at the key and thinking about how much I’ll miss you.

“I’ll never lose the key, and I’ll call every day!” I promised.

I remember the walk all the way home, the way my heart broke,

And the pain I felt for leaving you all alone, I promised to call and to never lose the key.

I lied to you, I couldn’t keep a part of the promise,

I kept the key, I never lost it, but one day I stopped calling

Days after days, I would type a message but never send it.

One day you send a voicemail and you say this, “I needed you..”

Then the voicemail ends, I notice how your voice sounds shaky

My eyes widen, I replay the voicemail, and I notice a new thing.

You sound defeated, broken, alone. My heart breaks in two

Shattering into tiny pieces, the cold wind slashing against my skin

But I don't feel anything, Nothing other than the emptiness in my heart.

I call, the phone rings, I wait, and a minute passes but it feels like a year

But still no answer, so I try again. Before I know it, tears streak down my face.

The next day arrives and I try again, but still no answer. Memories come

Crashing back to me, like waves in the ocean, unexpectedly,

And regret fills my soul, I know nothing of what's happening to you,

Nor do I know if you’re okay, happy or even smiling.

"Forgive me"… two words that come after the regret.

Will you ever forgive me, if I can’t forgive myself?

Maybe one day, maybe one day this guilt will be gone

Maybe one day, I’ll be able to move on.

I hope one day you’ll be able to forgive my guilt.