Too much
Yet not enough

A mantra playing in my head
All day
Everyday
Never ending
Never enough
It is too much

I try to be
What you want me to be
But your expectations are always changing
I seek your validation
For you never validate me

The cyclical tormentation follows my every movement
A weightless breath never fills my lungs
Carrying lead in my shoes
I try to run from you

But you’re a piece of me

Tattooed on my brain
I want to claw my eyes out to protect them from what I might see
But my hands are shackled behind my back
Please stop hurting me

On my knees
Begging you
Please love me
I’m begging you to

Take my heart in your hands
Don’t drop it like you do so often
Like you’ve done so many times before

Don’t crush it beneath your foot
Although it seems familiar
Fight the urge
I can’t take another break

It’s too much
But I don’t see enough of you