My words will be the death of me
Always worried what others see
Why can't I just be me
Why do I worry what you'll see
Why all these insecurities
can't you see your slowly killing me
Can't you see me struggling to breathe
Behind this face lies a sadness you will never see
Can't you see your slowly killing me
Can't you see the pain in my eyes amplified by the memories
Why can't I just be me
Why do I worry what you see
Why all the insecurities
Why do I still try
You know its all a lie
For is still cry
As scars form on my skin I confess my sins
Hoping one day this will all end
Hoping we'll still be friends
Hoping one day I can finally be free to be me
Finally be free of these chains that hold me to the ground
Hoping one day I'll be found
Hoping one day I'll be proud to finally be free of this shell I call me
Free of this hell that holds me
Free to be as human as I want to be
My words will be the death of me
I promise one day you'll see
But promise you won't cry for me
Promise you won't feel sorry
When I'm finally free of this shell my personal hell I call myself
free of me
when I'm finally free of these Chains that hold me to the ground
The day I'm finally found
Will be the day when you'll no longer be around to judge me
No longer around to see my true form
To see my storm consume the world with its story
Just promise you won't cry for me
I'll say bye for myself
You'll see
The real me
Not put up on a high shelf
Not hiding inside myself
Not living out my life in this personal hell of mine.
But Free in this realm of reality
Not just inside my head
Free to see all the sights and sounds of the world around me
Can't you see its a wonderful story
This life of mine
Its a mighty fine story
But they all try to tell it for me
My words will be the death of me
Can't you see
Others want to see me
Continue to live in this shell
This hell
They say I'm just chasing a dream that its a waste of a good mind
I wish people were more kind
But still I find
I can still hide
But why
Can't I see its slowly killing me
Can't I see me struggling
No all I see is is a fractured soul that burns to be whole again
So how's life been she asks
Before I even have time to think I cry
For I've lived a lie
Ever since I was five
No four
I've known the truth
See even in my youth I saw the truth
I saw my lie
I saw a girl
I saw her die and now I remain
Waiting to leave my cage
To step up on a stage and prove myself
To finally cure this rage
That controls me
That keeps others from seeing
This guy alone in his own world
Hurling rhymes like I'm running out of time
Now let's stop living this lie tonight
Alright
No more internal fighting
Thank you for trying
I'm slowly dying
I'm done lying
I'm done trying to be something I'm not