all i can feel right now is pain.
there is no greater hurt
than being left by someone you love.
i am dreading the fact that i must heal.
what am i supposed to do without you?

everywhere i go i see you.
the only thing i can hear is pain
ringing in my ears even when i’m alone
and i didn’t know that hurt
had a sound until i was forced to heal
when i’m not ready to stop loving.

and so right now i am bathing in the absence of love
forcing myself to think of you
because how else will i heal
if i do not feel every ounce of pain
and soak in the hurt.
i don’t need to feel lonely, but i need to be alone.

i am not weak because i am alone
and i have the capacity to love.
so all of this hurt
will eventually go away just like you
and i will be stronger than this pain
and i will heal.

and i will heal
and i will do it alone.
because pain
is not foreign to me, and i love
the thought of not relying on you.
but i will pridefully let it all hurt

because it does hurt
and i know that i will heal
since i was okay before you
i can be okay now that i’m alone.
and someday i will learn a love
that doesn’t know pain.

you can hurt me, inflict the worst pain upon me,
you can love me and then leave me alone,
but you can’t stop me from healing.