20 different dates
at 19 different places:
a total of 18 weekends
spent hand in hand

I also had the pleasure of having
17 awkward conversations
with your father.

I wrote you 16 love letters
You wrote me 15,
never getting the chance
to write the last one

Though, we did have at least
14 phone conversations a week.

I made you a bracelet
with 13 different charms:
each to celebrate a milestone
in our relationship.

I gave you 12 dozen roses
for your birthday,
and that would be one of
the 11 times I kept you warm at night.

We had 10 stupid arguments,
each made up for,
and we shared 9 kisses in the rain —


But then
you spent 8 days,
sick in bed,
and 7 separate times
I tried to convince you
to see a doctor.

When you finally did,
6 oncologists agreed
you had 5 months to live.

You spent your last 4 weeks
in the hospital;
Your last 3 days
in a coma.

I spent
Your last 2 days,
crying,
at your side.

I will never be able
to make up for my
1 missed chance
to say
"Goodbye..."