How come when I go to write about you my mind goes blank?
How come when I think of us together I think of belonging to you?
Do you ever belong to me?

Best friends till the end yeah of course why not?
S*** we get along great over the phone why the hell can’t we in person?
Maybe because you give me breathing room over the phone.
Or maybe, it’s because I get to dress the way I want over the phone.

Man sometimes you make me sick the way you speak
but day after day I’m waiting on your calls
I hate the sound of your voice
But I can’t wait to hear you speak
Your heartbeat rings in my ears like church bells
And it’s always
always
crystal clear to me
that you don’t know how much your rhythm drives me mad.
I can’t fall asleep at night because your words left my eyes stinging
like a fresh brand on my brain and will never, NEVER heal over.

Sometimes you make me feel so small
as you tell me not to let people push me around
Isn’t that ironic…
You’re the one to beat me down to nothing
then pull me back up
“Everything’s alright baby
it’ll all be okay”
What is it in your eyes that make me agree?

Man it ain’t all bad
When you call me your princess you don’t have to say it twice
I would do anything for a few more minutes in  your arms
because you hold me like you really, really want to.
Your playful grip gets a little too tight sometimes
white skin growing red as it fills again with blood.
Just like when things get too good
eyes too dry before they refill with tears.
Not sure if I can’t break free
or just don’t want to.

I know it’s cliche but your kisses are so toxic
all I wanna say is get out
get out for good.
but all I can manage to spit out
is come closer,
please love me
because I think I love you more
than you love me
and that feels like lead in my stomach
so heavy I can barely breathe.

What the hell am I thinking
couples fight day and night
we ain’t no different
we love each other to death… right?