Some people call it death.
Others call it a journey's ending.
I personally call it a loss.

I lost something that day.
Not just my body or my friends and family.
Not just my wife or kids but something greater.
I lost a big part of me.
No it's not sanity.
I realized once I made this bet it was literally a life or death situation.
I gambled my life on the line
And I lost.

I knew I would not see my friends, family and loved ones ever again.
I didn't get to say my goodbyes or my “I love you”
I was not ready for this bet.
But I lost.

I lost something that day.
Death was not kind to me
He warned me I might not win.
But I didn't listen.
I lost something today.

It was my soul.