As darkness seeps around my heart,
I become low and heavy
My shoulders feel like weights being pulled down by gravity.

I slip up the domineering path before me
Lying my head on the the once feathers of a beautiful bird
I think to myself, "Lord my heart is heavy ladened with sorrow  and despair...
Lord I need your help with my eyes and my heart.
For my heart is dark, and my eyes laced in tears.

"Lord if you're there come and rescue me!
I need a comforter! I need a savior! But most of all...
Lord I need a father.
I need a father to hug me, to comfort my heart when no one else can!
To hug my soul and stop me from tightening the rope, out of harms way!

"Lord... I want a father.... To love me."
The chair falls from underneath me.
My soul frightened and scared.
I hang my head high above the ground.

Lord why didn't you give me a loving father?