Nobody else can see it. Nobody else can tell. I’m scared. Like a child, I have fears like everyone else. Afraid to be judged. Afraid to be rejected. Afraid to be accepted. Afraid to be alone. I have fears, but no one else thinks so. They see what is on the outside. A strong hardass girl from the wrong side of town where the sun messes with your skin and the heat goes to your head. They don’t see the scared lonely girl that’s trembling on the inside. No one sees her. No one will see her. They will hurt her on sight if they see her. They will poke at her. Insult her. Hurt her. Violate her. Demolish her. Destroy her. Kill her. So I hide her from everyone else and refuse to let them see her. Even my closest friends don’t get to meet her. She has been through enough. We lost our daddy at 12 to the devil, who crept into his mind and revealed only the pain and anguish that he had gone through. The devil forced the gun in his hand and made him pull the trigger. At the age of 5 we experienced the true meaning of hatred. At the age of 3 we learned what deceit looked like. At the age of 4 we learned who loss truly was. And here we stand at 15 years of age knowing the evils of this world like the back of our hand. No one would understand our façade if they didn’t know our story. They won’t know our story, because they don’t want to know. They don’t want to know because they are scared. But they don’t realize is that I am scared too. Fear is what has taken this world and Fear has bullied everyone into submission. Fear is why the abused are silenced. Fear is why violence is alive. Fear is why jealousy and anger are real. There are only two real emotions. Fear and Hope. Fear is the mother of anger and jealousy while Hope is the mother of Happiness and Joy. Because of those two emotions we create other emotions that are man-made. Fear is our enemy, our bully, our assassin, our murderer. Fear is why no one can see the real me.