Why am I so unusually quiet?
I’ve waited 1 year
4 months
3 ½ days
for this moment;
Now I want to take it all in.
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After my words escape,
the stillness returns
and somehow
I feel inadequate in my response.
So I “clarify.”
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It’s like,
I want to absorb everything:
this room,
the warmth of your arms,
the gentle coarseness of your chest hair.
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I want you
to soak through
my skin
even deeper into me
than my heart.
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I suppose I’m focusing…
trying to keep steady hands
as I sew a pocket
onto my soul
for you to rest in along our journey.
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I don’t want to just take you with me.
I want to know you—
to be able to recite
from memory
my favourite book of you.
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Then when I reach out
I can predict the way you will reach back to me
so well that I almost move as you.
And even by myself
I will never be alone.
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I will forever have these moments
in the silence
learning how to be one with you.