The emotions they're uncontrollable I am but a body for them to use and abuse no matter what choices I make, what actions I do I am not the one controlling how my heart and mind move and work. Some weeks are full of regret and sadness were I constantly hate every moment I have lived, some weeks I live without a care I live in the moment not thinking about the effect and overall I will crave happiness, the weeks of paranoia and fear were i'm just scared too leave the house. All these phases play on an endless cycle which I can never break free from. However there is one bliss to look forward to the days where i'm in a purgatory of emotions were I can live in a plain of no fear, no sadness and no joy crazed weeks. Just one mutual feelings of tranquility.