I have never felt this way before,
A possibility that could change our lives forever.
More excited than ever.
Anticipation killing us,
At the edge of our seats waiting,
And waiting like a child going to open a present.
This could be it.
Positive or negative either way it will affect us.

We want this more than anything,
Two hearts and our souls combined into one.
Talking about our plans for the future,
How we are going to raise him or her.
The goals we have for their future,
Wanting the best for our child.

The over whelming feeling of this possibility,
A blessing that could change our love story,
I have no reason to be afraid,
I know that everything will be okay,
He and I will be the best that we could ever be.
This is part of our destiny.

Can’t stop smiling,
His eyes twinkling at me,
He wants this more than anything.
Our dream to have a family,
A possibility that would make us stronger,
Together forever,
I couldn’t ask for anything more.

Big smile on his face,
As he hands me a test to take.
I close the door behind me,
Feeling like I can’t breathe.
Five minutes waiting anxiously,
Heart pounding
Clenching my teeth
As I set the test on the counter
Trying to keep breathing
Hands shaking uncontrollably
As I reach for the test
It’s time to see the results.

A fat blue line is all I see,
My heart dropped,
I felt like my heart was breaking,
Like a part of me was dying,
Something ripped out right from under me.
It slipped through my hands and fell to the ground
Tears swelled in my eyes,
I opened the door slowly,
He stood there looking at me,
His gleaming smile quickly turned to disbelief
His arms wrapped around me
Pulling me into him.
My face buried into his chest
Holding onto him with clenched fists,
Tears falling down my face
I felt the ice cold drops of his tears fall on my shoulder,
This wasn’t how it was supposed to be.
His hot breath breathing into my ear as he whispers,
“I love you forever”