What did I do wrong? Why did he choose alcohol over me? Over my family. How could he have four children and then just give up on them and act as if they don’t exist? Would he want your son to do that to his family? Would he want him to choose alcohol over his family would he want your grandchildren to fell abandoned? I understand why you didn’t talk to me after I left, I was taken out of his life for good because of his choices. I never thought that I could feel remorse for not getting to know you but I do. I was so young I didn’t know right from wrong. I wasn’t allowed to choose what I could do. My mother did what was best for me. She took us out of his life so he couldn’t hurt us like he hurt her. I was only in first grade when he passed away. I was so young. It didn’t hurt as much as it does now. It hurts because I realize that you chose drugs and alcohol over me. he picked that stuff over his family time and time again until it was too late. Now he's gone and he can’t apologize. I say in my mind if you were still alive that he would say that he was sorry and that he loved me. But the truth is I don’t know, because I didn’t know him. And I wish I did.